Sunday, October 7, 2012
I think hate is too harsh a word but I just wanted to express this and see if anyone else shared my pain. I hate NA. Maybe it is just the groups in me area or that I started back this time around with AA but whenever I go to NA I walk away just regretting ever going. When I walk out of AA I feel so empowered, the planets become aligned, and my life makes sense. With the simple knowing that I am powerless. One is too many, a thousands never enough..
If you agree with me please share your experience and if you disagree please share that as well.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Sometimes I take for granted the ability to share my thoughts and feelings with people. Sometimes I am unable to just because I cannot seem to comprehend them. I just got off a medicine that made it really difficult to share where I was at and for someone who is recovering from drugs and alcohol that just isn't a good thing. I would go to a meeting and when it became my turn to talk would get extremely choked up and would not be able to share anything. Part of that was due to the Wellbutrin that I was on. It was doing a lot of bad things to me. My voice was literally just not there. Anti-depressants really do not work for me. I have tried Zoloft, Prozac, Paxil, and to no avail. None of those medicines made me feel "cured" or "un-depressed". Do I really have depression or do I have something else. I know one thing that I have, an addiction to drugs and alcohol but guess what folks.. I am treating that with the only known medicine on the market. The 12 Steps.